Its like a semi-sweet chocolate chip for me. You eat the chocolate chip directly from the bag and its bitter and waxy and does not taste delicious at all. But then you mix it with some sugar, eggs, and flour and all of a sudden you have got this warm little morsel that actually tastes delicious.
Leaving Richmond for me is like eating a semi-sweet chocolate chip directly from the bag. Its bitter. Its painful. And it does not seem like a 'delicious' idea at all. However, when you mix the leaving with the move to Texas, the open possibilities in front of me, and Heavenly Father's guidance it changes everything. The thought of moving forward warms my adventurous side and the 'delicious' possibilities that sit at my feet are exciting.
Bittersweet: being at once bitter and sweet; especially pleasant but including or marked by elements of suffering or regret.
On closer examination of the definition, though, I find that maybe bittersweet is not the correct terminology. While the move brings pleasant opportunities, I don't want this move to be defined by elements of suffering or regret. There is none of that here-it is not allowed. Because although I will be homesick for my best friend and very important people, there is not an ounce of regret for this move.
I counseled with my Father in Heaven concerning this move. I distinctly remember the feelings of peace and comfort I felt when I made the decision to go to Texas. And I am grateful for the answers I received. Today I have been pondering on 2 Nephi Chapter 4-the beauty of Nephi's testimony has struck my heart in a poignant way and I have found great comfort in knowing that God's hand has been ever present in my life, designing and creating something better then before. My message to you tonight: Take the time to look for His hand-I think you might be surprised at what you find-maybe the bittersweet isn't really bittersweet after all, instead maybe it is just sweet.
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