It's just another simple
Voicemail message
I'll pick you up and we'll do
Dinner by the fire
And we'll just watch it snow
It's from a year ago
Baby, I love you
And I can't wait to see you tonight
I've been thinking about you
All day long
She pushes nine to save
But still can't erase 'cause --
[Chorus]
It makes her feel close
Makes her smile
It's like he's with her almost
Til the tears take over
She's still in hell
But she tells herself
She's ready to let him go
'Cause that makes her feel close
It's just a worn out
Notre Dame t-shirt
She's gotten mad
And tried to throw that thing away
At least a hundred times
But she's got it on tonight
He used to wear it on the weekend
Just runnin' around
Probably forgot he even left it
behind
She says it keeps her warm
Oh, but it's so much more
[Chorus]
It makes her feel close
Makes her smile
It's like he's with her almost
Til the tears take over
She's still in hell
But she tells herself
She's ready to let him go
'Cause that makes her feel close
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
When Leaving the Zoo, Start Running towards the Parking lot,Yelling 'Run For Your Lives! They're Loose!'
My friend Katie sent me this awesome email, it was a list of 13 things you could try to release stress...the tag line just stuck out to me. (I'm taking my girls to the zoo on Friday and as I was reading it I had the mental image of Sarah and I running holding the girls and screaming...I literally burst up laughing outloud)
It's been a really amazing day and nothing significant has happened. But my heart is full of love and I just feel at peace. I spent the morning working on tasks for my Regional Calling, my Compassionate Services Calling, and working on my research. Then I went to work at Walgreens (where only two people smiled...seriously). On my way home I called and talked to my brother.
Words can not express how grateful I am for this new chapter in our relationship. I've always wanted to be close with my siblings and for various reasons over the years it just never worked out. But now that Adrian is 18 and more mature, we talk and have these awesome conversations. He even took 2 days off from work so that he could spend time with me when I get home next week! I'm excited to be going home, but as always there is a feeling of caution and unease. Hopefully it will be an exciting trip and we will be able to make some good memories. If nothing else, my brother and I will steal one of the cars and hit the road on our own!
Yesterday was also beautiful. I love good Sundays. I mean Sundays are always good, but yesterday was one of those Sundays that leaves you feeling good for the rest of the week. I did the early morning snuggle fest with my roomies (we lie in bed and talk about silly stuff), then we all helped eachother pick out cute outfits for church! (I know I keep saying it...but I love our new house and the new roommate to death) Sacrament was really moving, there were only two speakers but the lessons were about obedience and the happiness that comes with it. Then the lesson in D&C was fantastic. By relief society, I was overwhelmed with the spirit. The lesson in relief society was beautiful. We talked about temple ordinances (specifically the work for the dead) and my heart overflowed because someday (very soon) I will get to do those ordinances for my Grandma. (Wasn't she silly? Man I miss her every day)
After an emotional relief society, I went to my Regional meeting, and then Joseph, Isaac, Sarah, Stephanie, and I made dinner and watched Anastasia. I love ending Sundays surrounded by people I love. I hope I never grow out of that. Honestly, I hope that my life will be filled with people I love. I think that is why today was so peaceful and beautiful. Because in the end it doesn't matter what I accomplish if I don't love first. "The more you care, the stronger you can be."
And if that doesn't work out...I guess I'll have to leave the zoo running and screaming ;)
It's been a really amazing day and nothing significant has happened. But my heart is full of love and I just feel at peace. I spent the morning working on tasks for my Regional Calling, my Compassionate Services Calling, and working on my research. Then I went to work at Walgreens (where only two people smiled...seriously). On my way home I called and talked to my brother.
Words can not express how grateful I am for this new chapter in our relationship. I've always wanted to be close with my siblings and for various reasons over the years it just never worked out. But now that Adrian is 18 and more mature, we talk and have these awesome conversations. He even took 2 days off from work so that he could spend time with me when I get home next week! I'm excited to be going home, but as always there is a feeling of caution and unease. Hopefully it will be an exciting trip and we will be able to make some good memories. If nothing else, my brother and I will steal one of the cars and hit the road on our own!
Yesterday was also beautiful. I love good Sundays. I mean Sundays are always good, but yesterday was one of those Sundays that leaves you feeling good for the rest of the week. I did the early morning snuggle fest with my roomies (we lie in bed and talk about silly stuff), then we all helped eachother pick out cute outfits for church! (I know I keep saying it...but I love our new house and the new roommate to death) Sacrament was really moving, there were only two speakers but the lessons were about obedience and the happiness that comes with it. Then the lesson in D&C was fantastic. By relief society, I was overwhelmed with the spirit. The lesson in relief society was beautiful. We talked about temple ordinances (specifically the work for the dead) and my heart overflowed because someday (very soon) I will get to do those ordinances for my Grandma. (Wasn't she silly? Man I miss her every day)
After an emotional relief society, I went to my Regional meeting, and then Joseph, Isaac, Sarah, Stephanie, and I made dinner and watched Anastasia. I love ending Sundays surrounded by people I love. I hope I never grow out of that. Honestly, I hope that my life will be filled with people I love. I think that is why today was so peaceful and beautiful. Because in the end it doesn't matter what I accomplish if I don't love first. "The more you care, the stronger you can be."
And if that doesn't work out...I guess I'll have to leave the zoo running and screaming ;)
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Boys and Kittens are SILLY
I spent last night hanging out with some friends from church. We played games and shot some pool and it was tons of fun. People trickled out all through the night until there was only me and three guys left. For almost 3 hours I played pool with three of the silliest boys EVER...my sides still hurt from all the laughing. Classic silliness: Brad knocking the wall and dropping everything off the shelf (breaking some poor helpless bird figurine) and Jordan winning EVERY game (until the end when Joseph finally won) and finally Joseph's commentary on my shots. It was tons of fun...but I am super tired (no more late nights for this girl...yeah right)
So then this morning I wake up to talk to my new roommate (who I absolutely love-seriously she is a complete breath of fresh air in my life). Here the two of us were, sitting on the floor talking about even more silliness of boys, ie. the fact that they like you for EVER, but never tell you cause they are scared (only to find out when they do finally admit it-you have liked them all along) I told Vanilla (the new roommates nickname) that I just wish the boy could come up and say, "Hey! I like you...You like me? Great!" Wouldn't that make dating so much easier?! (Maybe instead of waiting on the boy I like I should do that...yeah right)
So anyways here we are sitting on the floor and my silly Sassy (who absolutely loves the new house) comes over to play. Vanilla and I decide to give her catnip...It was hilarious. We put the catnip in the lid of the container-which then ended up on Sassy's head...it was awesome.
So anyways...I have a lot of stuff that I could write about-but honestly I just want to keep it silly because life needs silliness sometimes.
Pictures of Sassy...look how much she has grown! Silly Boys and silly kittens....
**Here is a video of another silly boy...I wanted to put it on facebook but I am afraid he will get really mad...so I'm putting it here instead...
So then this morning I wake up to talk to my new roommate (who I absolutely love-seriously she is a complete breath of fresh air in my life). Here the two of us were, sitting on the floor talking about even more silliness of boys, ie. the fact that they like you for EVER, but never tell you cause they are scared (only to find out when they do finally admit it-you have liked them all along) I told Vanilla (the new roommates nickname) that I just wish the boy could come up and say, "Hey! I like you...You like me? Great!" Wouldn't that make dating so much easier?! (Maybe instead of waiting on the boy I like I should do that...yeah right)
So anyways here we are sitting on the floor and my silly Sassy (who absolutely loves the new house) comes over to play. Vanilla and I decide to give her catnip...It was hilarious. We put the catnip in the lid of the container-which then ended up on Sassy's head...it was awesome.
So anyways...I have a lot of stuff that I could write about-but honestly I just want to keep it silly because life needs silliness sometimes.
Pictures of Sassy...look how much she has grown! Silly Boys and silly kittens....
**Here is a video of another silly boy...I wanted to put it on facebook but I am afraid he will get really mad...so I'm putting it here instead...
Sunday, June 7, 2009
The Promised pictures!! Starting with Spring break until the activity this past weekend...I'm posting only the best so enjoy!
Papa Roach himself...otherwise known as Jacoby Dakota Shaddix
The new roommates (trust me...we couldn't be happier)
Nate can't resist taking pictures of himself when he has a camera
Heather and I at the St. George Temple for Spring Break
Climbing Rocks in St. George Utah
Papa Roach himself...otherwise known as Jacoby Dakota Shaddix
Heather and Sarah and I (crazy that my closest girlfriends became friends on this trip!)
Hangin out with Corey at a Saving Abel concert (isn't he a hottie?!)
Hangin out with Corey at a Saving Abel concert (isn't he a hottie?!)
The Magnificent DC Temple (it is my temple that is for sure) 
Heather and I can't even be normal at her dad's wedding...sheesh
Heather and I can't even be normal at her dad's wedding...sheesh
The new roommates (trust me...we couldn't be happier)
Nate can't resist taking pictures of himself when he has a camera
Barnyard Games involve lots of sweaty people....
Last but not least, my favorite boy ever! Wish he wasn't traveling in Europe for 3 weeks...I really miss my friend :o( 
So there you have them. Hope you enjoy them-especially that last one...its definitely my favorite!
So there you have them. Hope you enjoy them-especially that last one...its definitely my favorite!
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Today would be my Grandma's Birthday. Today has been really hard. Its been a little over a year, but I still ache for her. I want to hear her voice, to see her smile, to feel her hugs. I miss her smell. I miss her. I want to tell her my stories, make her laugh. I want to hear her say that she is proud of me. I want to hear I love you. I know that I will see her again someday...and most days thats enough. But for today it just hurts. Today someday is to far away.
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