Life keeps throwing some ridiculously hard curve balls. I'm clinging-but barely. Whats worse is after the last two days-I'm not really sure whether I am on the right path. I feel like I've trapped myself in this false sense of reality-that nothing is really happening the way I am living it. Its like a nightmare that you get stuck in, over and over again every night.
I was so ready to work towards the positive. Not ready to give up. But today, I'm not so sure where I stand. So for now, I'm just going to take a minute to breathe-to figure out what square I really am on and just how far I have to go at this point. And then I need a plan of attack.
But for today, I can't even decide how I feel. It changes every second. So for now, I'm just going to concentrate on breathing.
About Me
- Amber Lanae-
- Life is a journey. Its not meant to be easy all the time. Its not meant to be an uphill battle all the time. But it is meant to be enjoyed and loved. The trick is taking each day as a gift, as an opportunity to step forward. I'm slowly learning that my life is a lot like backpacking through the wilderness. Somedays are full of beautiful colors and new, exciting experiences; other days are a little more dark, stormy, and difficult. But they combine together-to make an amazing life. I've accomplished a lot in my short life-moving away from home, graduating from college and Pharmacy school, moving to Texas, developing my testimony and solidifying my faith-and every step of the journey has been different. But the point is that it is MY journey and I'm so very excited to see what is next!
2 comments:
Oh Amber, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way! So frustrating. Sometimes it's all we have in us to just keep breathing. So rough. I'm really sorry and I hope things turn around for you really soon!
Sometimes that's all you can do - just breathe and wait through the moment.
You could also just treat it the way that a friend treats their mail - his thought, if he leaves it long enough then it will eventually go away...
Granted - I don't think that works for mail, but the moments of life do pass away and the hard ones must sometimes just be endured. Sometimes we just have to hold on to hope and faith - no other action required, but I know that's hard. Hang in there!
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