Amazing Grace

I've had this song in my head the last few days, well the first line anyways. And I just keep thinking about the last few months and the personal struggles that I have had in my life. The last few months have been an all out war within myself. I forgot what it felt like to hear the Spirit. I forgot what it felt like to burn with faith. Maybe I didn't forget, but I blocked them out. And for a few moments, I even wondered if I had lost my hope.

But just when I thought the moment had come where I would surrender to it all, I was overwhelmed with the strength of my testimony. And the tender mercies of the Lord overcame my wearied heart and lifted me back on my feet.

I don't pretend to understand how the Spirit talks to others. But I know how the Spirit talks to me. And over the last few days, the messages have been subtle, but so true that I cannot let them escape my brain. My hope is renewed and my faith the same as it always was-I know the truth and that is all I need.

Life is hard for me. I'm sure its hard for all of us. Because it is supposed to be hard. Its about learning, its about growth. And honestly-as hard as it can be-I hope I never stop growing.

**A message for any of my friends or family who might be lost or who may have forgotten: Hold on. Just keep holding on. Because I promise you, whatever the reasons, it will be worth it.