I'm still reading my conference talks and they are so profound. I wish I would have started this sooner.
The past couple of weeks I have really been struggling. There has been a lot of things going on in my family that I haven't been able to deal with. First because I don't really want anyone to know, second because I haven't really had the time, and third because sometimes I just get tired of dealing with all the craziness that occurs in my family. (Don't get me wrong-I love them all, so much that sometimes it suffocates me) Add into the mix the stress of leaving the branch (which honestly was really hard for me to do) and the stress of school-I somehow became this faucet that could cry with a single turn....it was awful. So anyways, after a long week of school and work, I woke up Saturday to a rainy day.

I love rainy days...they are my mental health days. I allow myself rainy days to stay in bed and cuddle with a great book. This is of course exactly what I did Saturday-even though I knew I needed to study. I just couldn't bring myself to do anything...I've titled it my Mental Health day! :)

So then on Sunday, I had one of the most spiritual Sunday's I've had in a while. I went to the branch to bear my testimony for the last time in the foreseeable future and then I went to the single's ward. By the time I got home it was late and it was SNOWING! I took a long time with my personal prayer last night-I was reflecting on the talk by Quentin L. Cook, "Hope You Know, We Had a Hard Time." In my prayer, I asked Heavenly Father if he knew I was having a hard time, if he knew that things were starting to get a little overwhelming. (I love praying-because I am not afraid to communicate how I feel to my Father in Heaven)

I woke up this morning to continue studying and get ready for school...and this is what I woke up too: Now to you Westerners...I know it doesnt look like much-but here in the east this is enough to close school! And that is exactly what happened. I had an extra day to study for my two exams this week, an extra day to study for my quiz, and time to continue reflecting and resting.

I have no doubt in my mind that Heavenly Father knows when we are having a hard time. He gives us a lot to handle. He pushes us and prods us because he wants us to become the best that we can. But he also hears our prayers and listens to us when we say, "Hope you know I'm having a hard time." I am so grateful for my knowledge of this gospel. I am so grateful for the strength it gives me every day. I love the feeling the spirit brings when it testifies to me of this truth. Its not always easy, in fact for me-its usually really hard, but its always worth it.

The snow was a perfect answer to a prayer. It was beautiful and clean and white. And it reminded me of some very important things.