I don't expect people to understand. Their lives are very different from mine in every aspect. But sometimes, just sometimes, I wish that I could be normal. That I could fit the cookie cutter mold of what life should be like. Instead I am forced to ride out my emotions in my head. To keep them locked away, because no one could really ever understand how hard it is to lock all this away and act like I'm perfectly fine.
I'm going to the temple sometime this week. That's my goal for myself. Because at least there I am closest to my Father in Heaven. And in that sacred place, I know someone understands.
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Of course HE understands. HE is the only one who truly understands. That is why we turn to HIM for help because HE knows us personally. What a blessing to know you can enter HIS house to commune with HIM and feel HIS love surround you.
I think you would be surprised how many people feel the same way. Talking it out can be very therapeutic. Going to the temple is always the best thing to do, but try talking to someone you love and you know loves you. Maybe a close friend or your parents. Just remember you are loved!
I like was Lisa said. I think that's very true. I think people want to understand and sympathize with others. I don't think anyone really feels like anyone is in a sorry position. Most people are so worried about others, its just counterproductive to worry about it. So I try to only think about whether I feel comfortable with it. And I think listening is always the best form of offering support. Too many people try to give advice or simply say "I'm sorry," because they don't know what else to say--and feel they should say something.
I think going to the temple is such a good idea, it will really give strength. I also think talking it out is really the best. I've tried so many different things, but that works the best. If anything, you can talk to your heavenly father, cause he won't talk back and he'll still hear you and provide support. Another suggestion---write it down, then throw it away. Remember you never have to do anything alone, whether its help from the Lord through the Temple or help from Others, even if what they give seems mediocre, they love you and are trying to understand. And if they don't, then its not worth worrying how they are reacting to it. Because who wouldn't want to care about you? I love you girl, hope you are doing well and feeling better!
I am sorry that things are hard. I agree with Lisa about others feeling the same way. Every person, family, whatever-has their issues and battles. Some are worse than others. Hang in there-love ya!
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