"When you set your sights on the temple, EVERYTHING else falls into it's proper place. It may not be the way you want it to be, but it will turn out the way it is supposed to turn out."This weekend was a tumultuous ride to say the least. I've been back home from my trip to the west for almost a week now and I have had a very hard time coming down from all the stress (be it the prior preparation stress, the stress while there, the stress of leaving on good terms, and the overall stresses involved with coming back home). There have been a lot of things weighing down on me mentally which has made it difficult to sleep at night. By Friday, I had had it. I spent the entire day being anti-social and avoiding all people. There were people I was supposed to call but couldn't bring myself to do it.
Saturday I worked all day and then went to hang out with the Brow. We had an awesome time (at least I did) being girlie and painting our nails. Then we made the decision to go see the movie My Sister's Keeper (we had both read the book and really wanted to see the movie)...we were also both greatly disappointed in the ending...but that's not important. After the movie, we ended up sitting in my car in her driveway talking. For some reason the Brow and I enjoy having deep meaningful conversations in the car. Anyways, we talked about a lot of important stuff through the evening and it left me with lots to think about...
By Sunday morning I was crawling out of my skin. I knew that I couldn't avoid these issues anymore. It wasn't an option. But what I didn't understand was why it was so hard for me. At church, the sacrament talks were right on point. They were so amazing and the spirit was so strong. After sacrament I snagged the Bishop for a very important conversation-when that was over I was on a spiritual HIGH! Church continued and it was wonderful. My roommates and I came home and had TONS of people over to eat Breakfast and play games. After everyone had gone home for the night, I got a phone call. It was one of the people I was avoiding. It was one of the conversations I didn't want to have....but I couldn't avoid it any longer.
So I had the conversation. And this huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Even better, we both understood one another and finally let go of all the hurts. It was exactly what I needed to end my amazing day.
I am so blessed. I am so grateful to be in this gospel. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have, but even more so for the eternal perspective my Father in Heaven holds. I am grateful for Sundays, for their restorative effect. I am grateful for two wonderful roommates who uplift and support me-who literally bring me joy. I am grateful for more then I can express right now. And I am overwhelmed with love for not only my Father, but everyone in my life. I'm excited that I set my date. I am ready. And even though challenges will arise over the next month to deter me...I will make it through.
Saturday I worked all day and then went to hang out with the Brow. We had an awesome time (at least I did) being girlie and painting our nails. Then we made the decision to go see the movie My Sister's Keeper (we had both read the book and really wanted to see the movie)...we were also both greatly disappointed in the ending...but that's not important. After the movie, we ended up sitting in my car in her driveway talking. For some reason the Brow and I enjoy having deep meaningful conversations in the car. Anyways, we talked about a lot of important stuff through the evening and it left me with lots to think about...
By Sunday morning I was crawling out of my skin. I knew that I couldn't avoid these issues anymore. It wasn't an option. But what I didn't understand was why it was so hard for me. At church, the sacrament talks were right on point. They were so amazing and the spirit was so strong. After sacrament I snagged the Bishop for a very important conversation-when that was over I was on a spiritual HIGH! Church continued and it was wonderful. My roommates and I came home and had TONS of people over to eat Breakfast and play games. After everyone had gone home for the night, I got a phone call. It was one of the people I was avoiding. It was one of the conversations I didn't want to have....but I couldn't avoid it any longer.
So I had the conversation. And this huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Even better, we both understood one another and finally let go of all the hurts. It was exactly what I needed to end my amazing day.
I am so blessed. I am so grateful to be in this gospel. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have, but even more so for the eternal perspective my Father in Heaven holds. I am grateful for Sundays, for their restorative effect. I am grateful for two wonderful roommates who uplift and support me-who literally bring me joy. I am grateful for more then I can express right now. And I am overwhelmed with love for not only my Father, but everyone in my life. I'm excited that I set my date. I am ready. And even though challenges will arise over the next month to deter me...I will make it through.
2 comments:
Love you Amber!! HOpe it all works out!
Glad to hear the Sunday conversation went well!
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