So I have a story, Let me preface it with this morning I was talking to Sarah about how now the the single's ward is coming closer I really don't have strong reason to hold me back (other then the fact that I love the branch-but I feel like in order to grow I have to get out of that comfort zone...) So anyways I am sitting at Panera studying and all of a sudden there is a tap on my shoulder. Brother Clay (i think that's his name-he's in the bishopric) is standing there and he was like, "Amber right?" So of course I respond with "Yea, Hi, how are you doing?" So we make small chat which then of course veers towards the topic of the single's ward is moving. He reminds me that now all he has left to do is change the time and then I have to go because I mentioned that if it were closer and started earlier I would come...(STUPID TO MAKE STATEMENTS LIKE THAT WHEN PEOPLE IN POWER ARE LISTENING-its like talking about how you have been in the branch for 4 years and only given two talks...there are always people listening) We said our goodbyes and now instead of studying, my brain is on this decision.

Let me enter another side note: in my life when it comes to the big choices, I dont get these earth shattering confirmations that this is what I should do. Instead, things just fall into place. (when you grew up with a lifestyle in which life never fell into place it makes it very easy to recognize these moments-its also another testimony that Heavenly Father responds to us each individually)

I dont know what to do! I mean I really do feel like its time for me to try out the single's ward. I have felt like this for about a year. But I love the branch so much. If it wasnt for the branch I don't know if I could have made it through the past few years. The branch is home, its a place that I can go to and know that there will always be someone to hug, someone to take care of, and someone to laugh with. There are so many people there who have become my family. People who love me for me, people who are there when my own family lets me down. And I know that they will always be around-its just that seeing them every Sunday makes me look forward to getting through each week. And even more important to me...the branch is where I finally declared my testimony in its entirety. It is the place that has shaped me for six years and taught me to lean on my Father in Heaven through everything. Its more then just the branch-its a part of me.

I know that this may sound melodramatic...but this is why this decision is so hard for me: Growing up the church was hard for me because I never felt like I fit in-because my family was so imperfect. In the branch, your imperfections are why people love you and I am afraid that in the Single's ward that will be lost.

On the other side of the coin, what if I find all that and more at the single's ward...

See why this decision is so hard for me?